caught a train and time stood still [[beth]]

[Lilian Makenna Perdue]

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[style=font-family:tahoma; font-size:8px; line-height:10px; letter-spacing:3px; color: #9461B5; text-align:justify;]SO LONG LIVE THE RECKLESS AND THE BRAVE, I DON'T THINK I WANT TO BE SAVED, MY SONG HAS NOT BEEN SUNG -

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[style=font-family:tahoma; font-size:10px; letter-spacing:0px; color: #BE8BEC; text-align:justify]Lily was one second from full on breakdown mode. She hadn’t yet though. She had kept it all in. Somehow she had made it through her entire conversation with Jake and then some with a fake smile planted on her face and a few nods of her head. But as she basically ran back to Dulcinea she could feel herself getting closer and closer to losing it. She literally felt like she had been hit by a train. She hadn’t seen this coming at all. How could she have? Everything was going great and Jake had given no indication as to anything of this nature happening.

So Lily was going to the one place she knew she could go. Beth’s place. Beth had been her friend before coming here and well she sure was glad that somehow they ended up in the same place because right now Lily was needing Beth more than she had ever needed her and that was saying something. She had quickly texted Beth when leaving Jake’s room and now could almost see the dorms in sight. She knew that Beth had probably just gotten out of class and had something to do, but in this case Lily was going to be selfish. She was going to steal her best friend’s time so that she could properly breakdown since she hadn’t before.

She reached the door, biting her lip to hold back the tears. She just had a few more seconds before she was behind closed doors and could let every single tear that was begging to be let out stream down her face. She knocked on Beth’s door, bouncing on the balls of her feet just hoping that she hadn’t beat Beth back to her room because she wasn’t sure if she could hold in the tears much longer and her crying in the middle of one of the hallways in the dorms was not something that she wanted anyone seeing.

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[Elisabeth Patricia Harper]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: 101010; border: #262626 solid 10px; width: 515px; padding: 5 5 5 5px;] Beth had been halfway back to Dulcinea’s dormitory building when she had gotten Lily’s text that she was coming over, which really didn’t surprise her all that much at this point, it wasn’t exactly like it was unnatural for her best friend to just come over and see her at any time. And right now she didn’t have to run straight to some practice straight after her classes ended for the day so it wasn’t like it was a problem before she had to go out. And she hadn’t planned to meet up with Chase either so she didn’t have that, not unless he contacted her later for something. Things finally felt like they were settling down a bit. Of course, there were still all of the other large problems that were hard to ignore, but right now, she felt a lot calmer internally about it all. She and Chase were taking things slow, and it felt good… everything had gone well so far and they had managed to keep it pretty quiet, she wasn’t sure many people, if any, knew yet. Which was good for them, and mostly for him, she thought, he needed it, after all, she knew how hard he was trying to hold onto himself and she didn’t want anything to ruin that for him. She hadn’t been back at her dorm room long, just enough time to dump all of her books and her bag at her desk, and to quickly get changed into something that wasn’t her school uniform… she had been wearing the things her whole life and was used to them by now but that didn’t by any means mean she liked them… before there was a knock on the door, assuming that it was Lily arriving already. Opening the door, she frowned when she saw the expression on her friend’s face, stepping back so that the other girl could enter the room. “What’s wrong?” - - - - - - - - - - soon it unfolds who we are in this masquerade of stars, tear off the mask, the face you hide is what I'm missing, we made plans to kiss the sun at night, hopeless dreamers, hopeless types, one was turning, one was standing still, i won't forget what was promised here, you know this don't feel right, who knows what we feel?

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mae | 323 | outfit | *rolls*

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[Lilian Makenna Perdue]

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[style=font-family:tahoma; font-size:8px; line-height:10px; letter-spacing:3px; color: #9461B5; text-align:justify;]SO LONG LIVE THE RECKLESS AND THE BRAVE, I DON'T THINK I WANT TO BE SAVED, MY SONG HAS NOT BEEN SUNG -

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[style=font-family:tahoma; font-size:10px; letter-spacing:0px; color: #BE8BEC; text-align:justify]Lily quickly entered the room before letting herself speak. She felt as if she opened her mouth she would start crying and wouldn’t be able to stop. She started pacing as she waited for Beth to close the door. How did she even start explaining this? Where did she start from? And was she just overreacting? Would Beth tell her that she was overreacting? She didn’t think she was overreacting, but maybe she was. But he had just broken up with her. Sure it was just while she was over in Oxford, but still. Lily didn’t even notice that she had started crying as the thoughts twirled in her mind.

She finally stopped pacing and looked at Beth. ‘He’s not going to Oxford and he’s going to break up with me.’ She wasn’t even sure if Beth could understand the words that had just come out of her mouth. They were so broken up by the tears the rolled down her cheeks. Lily had never been so heartbroken before and she didn’t know how to even fix it. She wanted to rewind that morning and make Jake take back the words that he had said to her. Make him tell her that he had just been accepted to Oxford and couldn’t wait to be there with her and Hayden. Not have it play out like the awful morning that it had been.

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[style=font-family:tahoma; font-size:8px; line-height:10px; letter-spacing:3px; color: #9461B5; text-align:justify;]- - - AND LONG LIVE THE FAST TIMES, SO COME WHAT MAY, I DON'T THINK I'LL EVER BE SAVED, LONG LIVE US

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[Elisabeth Patricia Harper]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: 101010; border-top: #262626 solid 10px; border-bottom: #262626 solid 10px; width: 510px; padding: 10 5 5 5px;] i'm going away for a while, but i'll be back, don't try and follow me, because i'll return as soon as possible, see i'm trying to find my place but it might not be here where i feel safe, we all learn to make mistakes and run from them, with no direction, we'll run from them, with no conviction because i'm just one of those ghosts Beth shut the door again after Lily had entered the room, automatically locking it like she usually did these days, it wasn’t like anyone who was okay to come barging in at any point in time didn’t have a key already – her family, mostly, but that was a rare thing in itself to happen unless something was going on. Turning back to look at her friend, taking in the tears and the pacing, the crying part of which was probably more concerning right now, considering she had never really seen the girl cry over much before now, before quickly moving into the bedroom area of her dorm to retrieve the box of tissues sitting on her bedside table before returning, handing them to her. “Just, sit down for a minute,” she said, walking over to the couch and taking a seat on one end, sitting down with her legs curled up underneath her, waiting for Lily to join her before she said anything else. “Take a deep breath and calm down, then tell me what he said,” she told her. she was going to need more details than what she had just blurted out to her, after all, since she couldn’t tell whether she had meant that he was breaking up with her right now or if he was doing it when she left, not to mention it was harder to figure out what was going on without knowing what had happened exactly. She doubted, after all, that Jake would just randomly break up with her, so there had to be more to it than that. well now i'm told that this is life and pain is just a simple compromise, so we can get what we want out of it, would someone care to classify, our broken hearts and twisted minds so i can find someone to rely on and run to them full speed ahead, oh you are not, useless, we are just misguided ghosts traveling endlessly

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mae | 266 | outfit | solutions - the sundance kids | *rolls*

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[Lilian Makenna Perdue]

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[style=font-family:tahoma; font-size:8px; line-height:10px; letter-spacing:3px; color: #9461B5; text-align:justify;]SO LONG LIVE THE RECKLESS AND THE BRAVE, I DON'T THINK I WANT TO BE SAVED, MY SONG HAS NOT BEEN SUNG -

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[style=font-family:tahoma; font-size:10px; letter-spacing:0px; color: #BE8BEC; text-align:justify]Lily took a few deep breaths trying desperately to calm herself down. She was not one to cry and yet here she was sobbing like an idiot. And for what? Because Jake made a rational decision and wanted to break up while she was gone. Ya sure it was logical, but it didn’t make Lily like it anymore. She hated it. She just wanted to change his mind. She didn’t know how though. So instead she was going to pull away and just try and be ok with it. Not that she was sure that would work.

She sat on the other end of the couch, pulling her legs to her chest and wiping her eyes vigorously. She just needed the water to stop from coming out of them. She closed her eyes tightly and rubbed them again taking a few more deep breaths. ‘He said that he can’t come to Oxford and that we should break up while I’m there.’ Ok she was definitely over reacting, but she couldn’t help it. Jake had become so much to her. She didn’t want to just give him up.

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[style=font-family:tahoma; font-size:8px; line-height:10px; letter-spacing:3px; color: #9461B5; text-align:justify;]- - - AND LONG LIVE THE FAST TIMES, SO COME WHAT MAY, I DON'T THINK I'LL EVER BE SAVED, LONG LIVE US

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[Elisabeth Patricia Harper]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-color: 101010; border-top: #262626 solid 10px; border-bottom: #262626 solid 10px; width: 510px; padding: 10 5 5 5px;] i'm going away for a while, but i'll be back, don't try and follow me, because i'll return as soon as possible, see i'm trying to find my place but it might not be here where i feel safe, we all learn to make mistakes and run from them, with no direction, we'll run from them, with no conviction because i'm just one of those ghosts Beth had never really done crying well. Maybe it was because she didn’t do it often herself, or maybe it was just because nobody in her family really did crying well – about the only times they ever did was in extreme pain, extreme emotional distress (if there was a valid reason to be crying over whatever had caused it) or if someone had died, or it was done in private. The only thing that probably helped right now was the fact that Lily was her friend. Maybe it was from her own person experience, like from when Chase had left to go back to America the first time that they had met each other that helped her understand it a fair bit, from both perspectives really but when she and Chase had initially split it had been different to this. “I know it’s not easy Lily but… I don’t think that he would be doing it without a good reason,” she said. From what she’d seen of Jake she didn’t think he’d just be dumping her for the hell of it. And right now, she could see why he thought it would be better if they weren’t together while they were so far apart. “Do you want to stay here tonight?” well now i'm told that this is life and pain is just a simple compromise, so we can get what we want out of it, would someone care to classify, our broken hearts and twisted minds so i can find someone to rely on and run to them full speed ahead, oh you are not, useless, we are just misguided ghosts traveling endlessly

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mae | 211 | outfit | happy endings | *rolls*

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[Lilian Makenna Perdue]

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[style=font-family:tahoma; font-size:8px; line-height:10px; letter-spacing:3px; color: #9461B5; text-align:justify;]SO LONG LIVE THE RECKLESS AND THE BRAVE, I DON'T THINK I WANT TO BE SAVED, MY SONG HAS NOT BEEN SUNG -

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[style=font-family:tahoma; font-size:10px; letter-spacing:0px; color: #BE8BEC; text-align:justify]Lily wiped her eyes and took a deep breath, forcing herself to stop crying. This was pitiful. She hated herself for reacting this way. But she couldn't help it. Lilian Makenna Perdue did not cry and yet here she was bawling her eyes out. And over what? A boy. Not that Jake was just a boy. And it wasn't like it was over for good. Lily knew that. But everything was so new it still hurt like hell and there was nothing to numb the pain.

She took a deep breath. 'If you don't mind. I think I just need to sleep. Is it ok if I crash on your bed?' Maybe if she went to sleep this would all be over. She would wake up and it would all be a bad dream. She knew that wasn't the truth, but she could make herself think that. She needed something intangible to hold on to to get her through this massive heartache. She stood up and sort of made her way towards Beth's room looking back at her best friend, rubbing her eyes once more. 'Thanks Beth.'

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